Andddd I’m back to this. :| Grabe.
I am no longer saddened by the thought that I lost him. Yeah, well. He was never really mine. I don’t own him. I didn’t own him and I’ll never own him. I won’t let him. The thought of letting him have me angers me. I don’t deserve him and he doesn’t deserve me. He’s way too good for me. By ‘unfriend-ing’ me on Facebook, it became a way for him to help me move on. I mean, no status updates, no photos and stuff. I do follow him on Twitter though. But I’m not quite interested in his tweets anymore. It doesn’t matter to me anymore (I think) :)
I told myself to move on and I actually am. I am moving on. :) Exactly 31 days ago, it became clear that he doesn’t want me. I’m fine with it. I totally am. I’m fine with everything he does. It doesn’t matter. :) I’m free. I feel free. Free of admiring the wrong guy. :)
“Diba, diba?”, a simple statement that changed everything. Right there and then, I knew. It was like a huge bus hit me. It came to my senses that I wouldn’t be a part of his world. Never. He’s too arrogant, self-centered and HE’S TOO IN LOVE. TOO IN LOVE WITH HIMSELF. I think he’s a narcissist. I mean, he’s not really boyfriend material. He’s just that boy-next-door who likes to party, hook up with girls and never call them, ever, again. Well, that’s just what I think. Respect my opinion.
I can’t believe I fell in love with him. I fell in love without knowing him well. I guess it’s just the looks that attracted me, and his SUPERB dancing skills.
And I can’t believe I wrote-well, typed-this. I just hope to be over him. SOON.
Minahal ko naman yung mga bagay na mahal mo. Ginagawa ko rin yung mga bagay na ginawa mo. Naging gaya-gaya na nga ako ee. Andami kong ginawa para sayo. Pinapakita ko naman sayo efforts ko. Binibigyan naman kita ng oras. Oras, na sapat para mag-isip isip ka. Parte ka naman ng mundo ko. Pero ako, kelan ako magiging parte ng mundo mo? Minahal naman kita ah. MAHAL PA RIN KITA. Kulang pa ba? Hindi pa ba oras para ako naman yung mahalin mo? Sobra naman yang kalupitan mo. Bakit di mo na lang ako diretchuhin para isang bagsakan. Hindi yung unti-unti mo akong sinasaktan. </3
Let’s not complain about the calamities now. Let’s just help each other.
After a very exciting and tiring rehearsal (exciting because we’re currently learning a new pop piece and tiring because..well, every rehearsal’s very tiring. That’s quite normal. :D), my friend decided to invite some of our choirmates to have a little karaoke night at his place. :) That “some” turned out to be A LOT! We were blaming our president because he’s the one who invited US. :) He even whispered in my ear..saying “Wag mo sasabihin sa iba ha? Konti lang in-invite ko.” KONTI?! Haha. That “konti” is exactly 26 people. :) Job well done, Sani. LOL =)
Anyway, I’ll post some of our pictures last night. :) It was fun. It was also nice seeing the trainees jam with us and ride along with our jokes and stuff. At least, we’re getting along just fine. No tension. Just fun. :)
Looks like a club or party or whatever. But really, it was just our jeepney ride. =))
Kuya Mon, are you okaaay? >:)))
Photobombers alert!!! =)))
Go trainees! =)
Some of the following photos are from my Instagram account. I wasn’t able to link my Instagram and my Tumblr accounts. :p
Maemae and Kevin, a.k.a. THE photobombers. :)
Hello Ilocano boy. =)) And say hello to my braso as well. :))
With the host of the karaoke night! :)
Maemae with TIPCS’ own Christian Bautista. :)
GO LEGIT STATUS! #PinasPataas
Now, I won’t mention names. Just guess. :>
Last night, after the rehearsal, my choirmates and I decided to eat at McDonald’s, as always. :)
Supposed to have three orders of Twister Fries, but one of those fell off the tray. So, yeah. :)
Quite nonsense. Whatever. :)
Thanks Aris!!! =))